watz wrong wid me dese days?? derz juss no end to blogging..or for dat matter chatting, facebooking..n wat not!! dis wi-fi is a double edged sword..at least fr me!!
thought of getting mi laptop confiscated initially but no..cant even work like that!! to get dwn to work..i need windows XP minus all d games dat it carries, google chrome minus facebook, gtalk, hard drive minus all d movies stored in it..so basically i need d lifeless device!! d conclusion is NOTHING UNDER THE SUN CAN MAKE ME WORK!!
my life has suddenly become so eventful..i myself dnt realise!! mood swings happen wid a blink of an eye(i juss realised i love meena mam n i miss her :p)..btw meena mam was our english teacher(xtremely khadoooosss) n dis waz her 'takiya kalam'(if u undrstand dat lol), especially when talking bout responsibility towards skul "dese 7 months will pass wid d blink of an eye"!! any way..so all kinds of emotions (contrasting) happen to me one aftr anoder..
derz suddenly more fun, more adventure, ecstasy at times derz suddenly sorrow n derz anxiousness, disappointment, derz disillusionment if datz a word..derz also hopelessness at times!! i juss dont get..wat d heck is wrong??? is it dis place? is it dis damn world?? is it d ppl? or is it just me??? n i hate d fact dat i feel like losers n im writing all dis like losers..im letting my blog down!!
i feel like anonymous aashika again today..seem to hav forgotten myself!! small little things delight me..smaller little things piss me off..do not knw wat to make out of little things ppl do, wat they say..im dying to hav one final verdict on me..juss cant take new stuff frm new ppl every damn day(let alone day..every moment!) anymore!! frm new ppl..i guess i still probably can bt ppl i knw (at least i think i knw), just cant help having expectations frm dem..yup i want a jury trial of myself!! once n for all..itz fr me to knw rather than ne1 else..
i feel eccentric..n i guess i shud chnge d title of dis post to eccentricity..n yes i kinda have..i today really feel homo sapiens r a complex species..howmuchever u feel u knw urself n u knw wat ur saying n u knw wat d oder person is saying..it never is enough..ur not wat u think u r, d oder prson is also not what u think he is..itz complicated!!
all doz who feel im bulshitting..dis day will come to u!! come back to dis post then plz..im kinda researching cuz uc dis makes much more sense to me than any haptics or crown immunity ever did! u knw what?? a thought juss struck me..i shud probably switch to psychology..think it'l suit me better!!!
ppl often distinguish skul frenz frm coll onez..u must hav come across ppl saying--"dost to hain yaar par wo school ke dost..."!! friends r friends rite?? hw do skul n coll make a difference?? or do they?? aftr all ur a grown up in coll..u become smarter, more intelligent....also less feeling??? itz an open question..wudnt like to derive a conclusion cuz uc..d apparent conclusion seems to rip me apart!!
wat i juss did was attempt a post full of drama..mi blog dint hav any!! wat do u think?? :p
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